Category Archives: The Beginning

Getting started, because I didn’t know where to start, so I’m starting here.

Stop making excuses

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I’m still in shock about how fast this year has come and gone. I know I’ve written about this at least 3 times so far, even that Time doesn’t have to “fly”, but every time I turn around another month has gone by and I’m still left with things that I wish I would’ve gotten around to….things I would have liked to changed. For some reason though, talking about it and actually doing it requires two different stages of thought. And as of right now, that seems to be the rut I am stuck in.

So the most logical answer of course, would be to wait until AFTER I’ve escaped that rut to write about it, Right? Right??

When I made that decision, I couldn’t have been more wrong!!

Because by then, its just another thing to add to my list of “Haven’t gotten around-to’s”.

And between now and then, there could be too many “logical” excuses I could make to add it to the list.

Too much work to do, not enough time, something is more important, I haven’t figured it out yet…..

Like I said, those aren’t reasons. They are excuses.

And that’s where the cycle starts over, again; or in my case where it should come to an end.

As much as I would like to provide all the answers, I don’t have them.

As much as I would like to wake up and change the world, it doesn’t happen overnight.

And as much as I can talk, I’m embarressed that my dilemma lately has been that I’ve yet to listen to everything I say.

I’m learning that stopping and starting gets you nowhere, as much as we sometimes hate to admit. And starting OVER every time only sets you farther and farther away from where you began in the first place.

You thought I would have figured that out by now……..

I’m not perfect and I don’t try to be. Life is a journey, not a dictionary you pull out from time to time to look up meanings and answers. Therefore, its not right of me to try and be that dictionary. If life were that simple, there would be no excuses to make in the first place.

I said it before. I will probably say it again. This time, I’m actually listening:

“I can’t write about change when I’m still changing myself, and I can’t write about life when I’m still living it. I can only write about my journey through it, and all the little things that make it worth writing.”

Life is too short to be spent waiting. All answers come when they are supposed to, its not something you can force yourself to figure out. The more time you spend looking for something thats not ready to be found, the less time you spend living in the meantime.

My Second “Beginning”

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I really appreciate all my family and friends and anyone who has stopped by, read, or commented on one of my post. I can’t believe I already have “followers” after only a month. Thank you! I love that, and I hope you keep reading.

 

This past week, I feel like I’ve temporarily lost track of what direction I wanted to take this new journey of mine. If you hadn’t already noticed, its taken me nearly a week to write this, but I guess I now understand why.
I jumped in hoping a direction would come to me, and in a way I was right. But in another, I know that no matter what direction that is, its up to me to take the first step towards it.
I realize my start on this blogging adventure was a little rough, but it got me started and that’s what matters more than anything. After months almost a year of procrastination, I finally took the first step. I wasn’t sure how I was going to begin, but as I got going, I knew that it would change (things inevitably always do) so I tried not to focus on that. I just knew I had to trust it.
There’s nothing saying that I have to stick to any one thing forever ( at least to this day, I haven’t see a sign saying so) Hence the reason I chose the name Freedom to Change.

But I’m realizing there’s so much more to change than just the occasional reality check. There’s always that moment where you have to stop talking and start listening to see what is really being said. This week I stopped and listened for a while to hear what I was saying.

Like I said, I took the first step, but now I am taking a tiny step forward.

If there’s something you want, you can’t be afraid to chase after it. You can’t sit around waiting for it to come to you, even if you’re not sure how it’s going to affect your world. And when you feel a “push” towards a certain direction, you have to trust it. There has to be a spark of something you feel strongly about. And once that spark is lit, it takes off and there’s no stopping it.

I’m realizing that everything we do has an impact in someway. I’m realizing that not everything I write has to be 4 pages long. And I’m realizing that if I want to take a day and talk about my new pair of polka dot colored socks, that there is nothing wrong with that! (And I promise you, I will get around to doing so one day)

 But what I’m seeing so far is that I can’t write about change when I’m still changing myself, and I can’t write about life when I’m still living it.

I can only write about my journey through it, and all the little things that make it worth writing.

I love life…..more specifically, I love MY life and I want to make sure I embrace it in every way possible.

I’m not going to look back and I’m not second guessing, I’m just moving forward with the changes life brings.

I’d love to make a difference.

And I’d love to change the world.
But I know that’s something I can’t do on my own.

It has to start by changing ourselves.
Therefore I am starting by changing me.

I don’t want another day to pass by without taking advantage of every minute of it.

I want to discover all those little things and details that make life truly amazing. There’s so much more beyond that make our dreams literally become a reality.

I’m hoping you’ll join me on this journey, and I don’t want you to just listen to me, I hope listen with me.
Because I guess what I’m really saying is:

I’d love it if you would change the world with me.

Caution to All

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So far I’ve only made 3 posts each of which exceeded 800 words. My mother informed me that I am slightly “wordy” and I didn’t even know that was legally a word. I think my blog should have come with a sign saying “WARNING! This girl is overly talkative and tries to cram too many words in one sentence! All readers are subject to develop similar habits and/or long winded syndrome. Proceed with caution!!!”
See how I said “Should have”, which means I didn’t think of it until after the fact. Although……..I did mention “I tend to get carried away” on my first post. You should have taken that as your warning. 😉
 
Anyway, instead of trying to talk you into insanity right away, I thought it might be wise to post a simple picture instead. You know, that way your brain has time to re-cooperate from its most recent confusion.
After all, they say a picture speaks 1,000 words, and I’m sure I would have no problem writing 1,001.
 
Meet Diamond and Buddy. I will try to sum this up in 10 or less.

 
 
These dogs have always brightened my day, no matter what.

Anything is Possible

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I believed for a long time,- up until about a year ago in fact, (yeah, told ya it was a long time) that there would be things I wanted to do or things I would want to achieve that I wouldn’t be able to, and I was OK with that. I had it in my mind and was ok with the fact that maybe only certain people could be famous, or only certain people could live however, wherever, and whenever they wanted. I said to myself, that’s who they were, and this is who I was, and I would never be able to change that.
But I was still disappointed and discouraged to feel that if I didn’t know exactly how I was going to go about a situation, that I would have to forget about it and find something I DID know about. I’m sorry, but the thought of sitting in an office from 8am to 5pm everyday, stuck in an everyday routine, living an everyday type of life, never did, and still does not appeal to me. In anyway. whatsoever. Period.
Because that’s not who I am. That’s not who my parents are. And that’s not who they’ve taught me to be. But I think we all come to a point at one time or another where we are just not sure where the next move is going to come from. And that’s where I was.

I always knew I wanted to write. I always knew that was a big part of who I was. On the other hand however, I had no idea how I was going to make it happen. I couldn’t conceive the thought of what I would write about or how I would be able to get my work out there to the world. Even if I did, there are so many books, journals, newspapers and blogs, who would want to read me?

And that’s where things started to change. But not completely.

I kept trying to put a label on the, “what I want to be when I grow up” thing. (Although respectively I do still have time to try and figure this out) I didn’t want to wait. Because really, what was I waiting for? Life is too short to be spent waiting. If I were to wait, and procrastinate, I’d be right back at this position in five years or so, asking myself the same questions. I would have achieved nothing, and succeeded in buying myself another 5 years to NOT think about it. I knew what I wanted, but was still trying to put something different in its place.

What was right in front of me, I kept pushing away. – denying myself the slightest chance to believe that it was even an option.

So instead of running, I tried to make a list of the things I did know about. But guess what? Everything I came up with had no definite answer.

And that’s where it hit me. Sort of.

Anything I want to do will always require some kind of learning curve.
I’ve always found it harder to learn about things that your not completely interested in, because your not interested!
I knew I had to start somewhere. Why not start doing something I actually want to? …….Hello, why didn’t I think of that in the first place? I guess that’s part of our learning curve though and our journey is to embrace it.

And that’s where I am now. And I guess you could say this is part of My journey. Even though at this moment my posting will most likely be lost amongst millions of others, I will continue to write it. Why? Because that’s how real it is, and that’s what makes me happy.
That’s not to say that this is the only thing I will ever do. There are still millions of things I want to do and learn about but this where I know how to start. I know I will always have the freedom to change, but learning along the way will help me be able to make that decision.
I know what’s possible, and I know that it only takes one person to read this and say, “Yes! I know what you mean. I’ve been there, I can relate to that- I understand that.”  And that’s how we evolve by learning from each other, because one way or another, we all have some kind of story to tell.
Were all here to make the very most of our possibilities. I believe that part of making a change is understanding when to let something stay the same.

Change doesn’t always have to be different.

Sometimes its just that little voice in the back of your head letting you know that anything is possible.

About Me

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Hi everyone, someone, anyone….my name is Sheila and welcome to my blog- or shall I say the start of a blog. I’ve never done this before, hence I’m a tad bit nervous but probably more excited than anything. I tend to get a little carried away, (I apologize in advance) so try to bear with me here.
 
I am originally from south Florida, but now live in North Georgia. I guess that could be labeled as “From beaches to the peaches”? Florida will always be where I’m from, but Georgia is now my home and is where change has brought me for the time being.
 
I have two dogs that I love unconditionally, despite their tendency to be mischievous. At times they can be more sentimental than people, and I think that goes for all animals.
 
I love baking, gardening, traveling, photography, and virtually everything in between. (This includes: chocolate, Hawaiian flowers, yoga, and the color purple.)
I am fascinated by everything, because the world is absolutely amazing.
I dream of traveling and seeing and experiencing the many, many different things in life. I believe life should be lived to the fullest, everyday and in every way possible. Each day I learn something new, and in this world, as long as you stay open to the endless possibilities, you can and will never stop learning.

I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason, whether reasons are present at the time or not.

One of my dreams is to live in Hawaii and I have no doubt in my mind that I will be able to do so.
The one thing you should know about me, if nothing else, is that writing is my passion. I promise you, and this is no lie: I will drop everything without a moments notice to write down an idea when it comes to me. My poems and stories are a part of me. My whole life, my world, and the world around me, along with so many other things I’ve felt, learned, experienced or just want to remember, all come to life in my writings.

People throughout your life will try to stand in the way of what you truly want. Sometimes that person can be yourself. I have learned to accept this as something to be grateful for instead of something that should be despised. Everyone has a right to an opinion and a voice, and that’s part of what makes us human beings.  I will never try to tell someone the way they should do things, but I will always treasure what they have to say.  I will never hold a grudge towards anyone for anything, ever. Life is too short and in the big picture, its meaningless.

We were all born to have a purpose. We can all have, be and do anything we want. Each one of us has the potential to make a difference, to choose what we want out of life, to find our true joy and most importantly, we have the ability to change any piece of that at any time. Writing has helped me to understand the things I could not explain, or explain things I could not understand. Its spontaneous, unpredictable, magical and just plain amazing…just like life. And maybe that’s why I love it. Everything about it – every aspect of it – in the most obsessive and undeniable way possible, because like life, it too is always changing and no one can ever stand in the way of that.
 
My point? Have I left you wondering? I hope so.

I feel pretty confident that this first posting inevitably will be the hardest. Whether anyone will read this or not, I do not know. But obviously you have found me, so thank you, and I love that you have taken the time to read my page.

As far as a point goes, I can’t say absolutely that I have one, because there is so much that is still unwritten. My goal for this blog is just to write about what I know about. My intention is not to try and provide answers, because I don’t have all the answers. In fact, I probably don’t have many at all. I only want to share with you what I’ve learned and the experiences in my life, and in return perhaps you could do the same. As I’ve said before we are always learning and we all experience things differently. There is no plan engraved in stone for anyone of us. And thats the beauty of it! Whether you know what you want or not, there should be nothing to stop you from believing in it. Believe in your dreams, in who YOU are.

 One thing I know for sure is this: Happiness is not something that rest in the opinions of others, always remember that. You always have the freedom to change, but you have to find what makes YOU happy. When you find that, chase after it with all of your heart. Capture it, embrace it, remember it, and what ever you do, never let go. ~

This is who I am, and I am never letting go.